Not good

Oh, I so want someone to talk to.

Everyone is avoiding me.

I have cut myself again.

I initiate Facebook chats and people instantly go offline.

I understand why.

I am a drain.

I am useless.

I leach people’s energy.

But I am so scared.

So alone.

What can I do?

Would my kids be better without me?

If I drove my car into a tree, would their lives- not now, but forever – be better or worse?

I just can’t do this.